direct me to the fast forward button, please.

Well, here I am presented with a kind of nonpareil circumstance. I'll admit that it's crossed my mind a few times that such perfection is rarely afforded. I question it's longevity - Will it be like this forever? Can life really be everything I've always wanted? Will I get the chance to prove wrong to all that has ever doubted me, or has asserted that my heart's longing was unmatched? We shall soon see... :)

i bought a book the other day, that i've managed to hit the middle of. it's a novel by jane heller called female intelligence. it's strange, because it meddles in the ideas of communication issues and differences between men and women. being a novel, it manages to maintain a bit of entertainment, while providing a new perspective on things that have become a resistance in my own marriage. i also believe that there will be some added drama coming up, so i find myself having a hard time putting it down.
the only time i really have to myself is in the late night or early morning hours. i've come to take advantage of these hours to clean, daydream, ponder and even just 'veg'. everyone needs those moments to themselves, to enjoy their own company, to remember the person living beneath the daily dilemmas and monotony.
so, the new prescription to my dulled life is reading. well, that and of course my weekly devoted trips to the flowershop. :)